sober....5 days

This is usually my breaking point. I haven't been to work this year. I want to elaborate on my mother. I know she's depressed. She sits on her computer all day playing pool and talking to her 'friends'. It's kind of sad. She lives off coffee and cigarettes. She's skin and bones. She dates guys online then they never call her again. I guess a lot of mothers are like this now. She doesn't care or notice I haven't been to work or that I'm depressed. I didn't mention I started going to meetings because she probably wouldn't have noticed and I'd have to say it twenty times before she said anything. 21st century mom, deluted by computer and online social networks. I messaged L, I told her I don't want to work anymore. I feel lame. I tried calling. Then I started crying. I want to avoid all that. I don't understand what's wrong with me. Oyea I found out it's only january 5. so thats 4 days sober. I'm getting ahead of myself here. I have Math class tomorrow at 10 am, online and Creative Writing at 6-9 pm. Stoked for both. I should organize myself now.